Panic crept up my spine like the first wave of an acid trip..

Hi. Everyone (except me) is counting down the days to the day they can finally force me into rehab .. Still got the nerve damage so fuck this, i need drugs to be able to function at all .. Why is everyone so inhumane here they want to fuck me over and throw me into rehab, making me feeling worse in every way. I've been 2 years in rehab already, and turned out "like this" , as they would say, what would make they think i would change because they force me to this? LOGIC, lacking it is. HUMANS, stupid they be. Jesus christ.. Free will? Nah. Pain? Sure , here go ahead you fucking junkie you're faking it to get drugs yada-yada-yada. HAHA Yea a "mate" actually been saying a couple of times that he thinks im faking it. My answer : Fuck you. Seriosly, who has the energy and lack of soul to fake being crippled? So it's like usual here, fucked and up, mostly fucked but a little up.. I will keep on looking for painkillers cause i've had enough pain in my life, and thats that. Hope to write you again y'all

-DC