Hello Journal! (It's obviously what this is since i'm the only one reading) I'm not butthurt, still nervedamaged and no one is doing shit about it except me. No i do NOT wanna go rehab and i'm prolonging it as much as possible. It's just getting harder and harder to get my pain relieved..
ALSO: I'M SINGLE AGAIN .. Yes indeed, lasted a whole 2 months or something? You know whats the worst part? SHE SAID SHE LOVES ME .. That's what hurt the most, okay so she and i both had big problems. But i don't feel like i let them out onto her.. Maybe one good thing with rehab would be to be left alone, but then again the big issue with the PAIN!!
I try to keep my self proccupied but it's easier said than done with a heavy opiate addiction and nervedamage all over my fuckin' leg still after almost 8 months(??) Hard to keep track when every day is the same. And to make it worse now i've started to miss when i inject, which makes it even more expensive to relieve my pain.
Some days i feel like "fuck it" but then i remember my son. One day i'm gonna get out of this stinkin' trench of a life and actually be there for him .. But up untill then, LET ME GET RID OF MY PAIN. So this is Chillum, still alive, still not respected, still looked down upon and still FIGHTING. Never give up, never surrender.
CHEERS FOR NOT READING .. Haha -DC